The New Year

Find your way. Don't just sit there and hope for a better year, go out and change it yourself. Seek what you are after, because it won't seek you out. Life is funny that way, so many of us out there that wish and pray for a better day, but do nothing else. Put in the work and never stop, until it's in your hands or your mind or even your heart. Life will roll on right past you, while you sit and stew on why things aren't working out for you. If you have nothing of what you want now, what do you have to lose? NOTHING IS RIGHT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Make a plan, test the waters and even dive in head first if need be, but just don't sit there and do nothing. I hate it when people complain about something and don't do anything about it. Yes you may not get any results right away, but let yourself be known. Shout it to the world in every way you can. And I don't mean on the street corner in the middle of the night. There are many outlets out there and you just haven't found the right one if you are looking. Don't ever give up, I didn't and I felt the same way for a long time, but I didn't give up and now my wishes are beginning to come true. Think of it like this, maybe it's just not your time yet, but it will come if you keep fighting for it. Make the year to come, your best one yet, I know I am. Well until next time.

IT'S FINALLY OUT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

My book came out today and I'm so excited. I hope you all get a chance to check it out. I believe it will be the best selling book of 2011. I believe everyone out there can be critics, so read it and tell me what you think. Here are all the details to get a copy. For now it's just online, but coming soon to a book store near you.

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Why are you, so SERIOUS?

Come on and face it. It already happen and there's nothing you can do about it. Your thinking ( What?) well just about everything that seems bad in your life. You can't expect life to dance to your tune, it has it's own music, you just have to listen better. If you keep doing the same crap, shouldn't you get the same results? Change is the only way out, of that giant rut you are in. And guess what? No matter what you think, you put you there ! No excuses now, you aren't a sheep are you? BBBBBBBBBBBAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHH! If you saw yourself starting to fall, wouldn't you move? Only you can fix it and if you continue to sit there stewing on it all, then you are a sheep and it will stay that way until the day you die. Get up off your ass, and do something about it! The word for today is CHANGE. Well until next time, and a Merry Christmas to all and to all, CHANGE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

A little truth about bloggers

Yesterday I was watching The View, yes I was watching The View. Whoopie Goldberg made a great point about bloggers out there. You know those brave souls out there that talk all kinds of crap on the internet, but don't put their picture up to show who they are. To really put a face to that nasty mouth. I am paraphrasing, but she was basically saying they had no balls! And I agree. I have always loved her in every thing she has played in. My favorite though wasn't a comedy and she was great. That was The Color Purple, to me an all time classic. I would love to meet her some day. I think she would be a trip to hang out with. Pour a few drinks and just talk about what ever. The conversation would pretty much take care of itself. She's not bad to look at either, I have always thought she had that girl next door kind of sexy going on. Maybe after my book goes platinum, they will have me on the view. Who knows, anything is possible from here on out. I'm just really glad my book is finally going to see the light of day. It should be out by the end of January. Well until next time.
                                                              Peace
                                                                       Writer in Limbo

A little holiday poetry

It is the night before Christmas and the kids are asleep,
I sat in the corner and began to weep,
no presents for them I was broke as a joke,
like a fire their dreams going up in smoke,
I look in the cupboards, for tomorrow a feast,
only anger I find like a snarling beast,
I dropped to my knee's knowing not what to do,
is this what they deserve, no it can't be true,
as the tears ran down I looked in the air,
then shook my fist from the bottomless despair,
" How can you watch your good people rot,
some starving in the streets, while others get shot!
While the greedy get rich and take it all,
as the good and honest sink and fall!
Would they be better, without me in their life,
no father to speak of, and I was never a wife."
Just then my daughter came out from her bed,
she sat down on my lap and rested her head.
Looking up at me as she touched my face,
her smile was like gold, as it lit up the place.
" As long as we're together, we'll make it through,
togetherness is Christmas and that is true."

A little holiday poetry

It is the night before Christmas and the kids are asleep,
I sat in the corner and began to weep,
no presents for them I was broke as a joke,
like a fire their dreams going up in smoke,
I look in the cupboards, for tomorrow a feast,
only anger I find like a snarling beast,
I dropped to my knee's knowing not what to do,
is this what they deserve, no it can't be true,
as the tears ran down I looked in the air,
then shook my fist from the bottomless despair,
" How can you watch your good people rot,
some starving in the streets, while others get shot!
While the greedy get rich and take it all,
as the good and honest sink and fall!
Would they be better, without me in their life,
no father to speak of, and I was never a wife."
Just then my daughter came out from her bed,
she sat down on my lap and rested her head.
Looking up at me as she touched my face,
her smile was like gold, as it lit up the place.
" As long as we're together, we'll make it through,
togetherness is Christmas and that is true."

I'm Back

It has been a very trying time for me the last couple of weeks, but I am working thru things. I'm not sure what to write about at the moment, but give me a second and it will come to me. Well I finally got myself a publisher and with luck, my book will be out after Thanksgiving. They seem very interested in going forward with it, so you might be reading it before Christmas. It's a great book, and I think it would make a great stocking stuffer. It will start off slow with the sells, but before you know it, it will be on the New York best sellers list. Sometime in the near future I will be doing book signings in Omaha for sure. I will be looking to get as much buzz going on it as I can from my end and the publisher is going to do the same. I am more than excited about the possibilities and how far it will take me. This has all been 18 years in the making, and it's all going to be well worth the wait. Many times I just wanted to give up and never write again, but as you can see, I didn't so you shouldn't either. What's your dream, ask yourself that and sooner or later you may have an answer. After that, go for it, if that's what you want. Figure it out and put in the work. If you choose not to try, than don't complain about it. Your life is yours to do what you want with it. Just don't waist it! Waisted talent is the worst thing in the world. It's because you can control it. Not like world hunger or world peace, you can't change that on your own, but you can change your own destiny. The bottom line is, you want to waist your life, that's your choice, but don't hold back those around you with your negativity. Your words can hit harder than any fist. Remember that, the next time you want to dis someone talking about their dream. At least try, really try. No one can really hold you back, except you. Do what you want, but it's all on you, remember that! Well until next time.
                                                     Writer in Limbo

Cause and Effect

Most people couldn't give to shakes about cause and effect. Not even thinking of the aftermath of what they have done. In the simplest of terms, all of us change the world everyday. For the good or the bad, it happens all the time. Especially in your own home. Lets just say me, I screw the lid on to tight for my wife to open. It's a jar, and it slips out of her hand. The glass shatters all over the floor, and before it can be cleaned up, one of the kids cuts their foot deep. Now it's time to go to the hospital. On the way you are distracted by a scream from your kid, and the next thing you know, your in a head on collision. Everyone but you dies! It's like a ripple on the water. Imagine all that you have effected by just one little act. It may seem small and ridiculous, but it's not. I have seen the kind of ripple, that turns into a tidal wave. So remember, always put the seat down and all those other small things a man needs to look out for. For a woman it's the same, just other things, like certain words at the wrong time. I know this guy that woke up smiling, but over heard his wife on the phone. He took what she said the wrong way. She was actually talking about someone else. He left without her knowing, ended up at a bar way to early and got in a bar fight. He didn't mean to, but his cause and effect was, an empty beer bottle, a comment that made him madder and a quick burst of rage. The guy is dead and he will probably never get out of the hell hole he is in. So next time you decide to kick that rock on the side walk, think twice. Someone may step on it, trip, fall and break their neck. Cause and effect, so watch your step! Until next time.
                                                                  Writer in Limbo

Off the Cuff

I thought I would just wing it today. I got a tablet with a couple pages filled with ideas to write about on my blog, but I thought I would begin a new series. Off the Cuff : A reach in and grab what ever is in there at the moment.
For starters, I think the coach of the Huskers is doing a great job turning our team around, and they have a real shot at the Championship this year. The Big 12 title will be ours, the last year we are still in it, big ten next year. Imagine all the games we will get to see of them next year, that won't be pay-per-view. Every Saturday during the season, you turn on CBS and you get Notre Dame, Michigan, Ohio St., Penn St. and so on. The big ten teams are always on and the good games to!
Then there's the whole Obama thing going on. Come on people, he is not the one that put us in debt. Look to the  Bush and before. And the WAR, he didn't start it, he is trying to figure it out, just like the rest of us. I would hate to have that job. You think about all those stars out there, made about the paparazzi and fans invading there lives. Well Obama has got everyone up and on his ass, how would you like that. It will take time to get every thing back on track. Take it one day at a time, rather than I'm going to be broke forever or just plain thinking to yourself, negative crap all the time. What ever you send out, that's what your going to get back. It's called The Law of Attraction. Change your state of thought and it will change your state of mind. You change your state of mind and good things will come your way. If every one in this wide world all thought that way, this world of ours, would be a much better place. Give a smile as you walk out your door, look as if the world is your oyster as you walk down the street. Think of your job, to be the best place to work and you of course are the best worker in the place. And continue this thinking with everything you do, and you will slowly see the changes around you. Everyday try this little exercise. Close your eyes, if only for five minutes of your day. Don't think of it as a chore, but a pleasure. Make sure you are alone, the bathroom is a good place if the house is crowded. Sit on the bowl or in the bath. Like I said, close your eyes and imagine something you want. A new car or a new job, getting a big check in the mail, something you want within reason. Don't go overboard, be realistic. Then see yourself getting that job, walking out your door and down to the mailbox, looking at the outside of that special car then getting in and going for a drive in it. If you can really see it, sooner or later it will come, but you must hold on to the positive state of mind. That's the only way it can work. The universe picks up on your thoughts like carrier ways, it has been scientifically proven. It doesn't matter if you believe in this, it believes in you. Your potential is up to you and don't start, then think a couple days later, this ain't working, I'm never going to get what I want. Imagine your thought being like the grass growing. Your thoughts start like seeds, as a positive thing growing. It doesn't get big over night, it takes time. Now imagine you getting negative in thought, instead of the grass continuing to grow, it goes back down like it has no water, sun and it dies! Think about it! The dark thoughts in your mind swirl around you like the wind. They effect everyone around you, and so on. Imagine that ripple effect happening everyday. No wonder everyone is worried about 2012. If we don't all change our thought process, well I think you know where I'm going with this. Well I think I went far enough today, and of course it's all just my Opinion, take it as you will. Until next time, think positive.
                                                     Writer in Limbo

It's there choice, not yours

I figured, why not follow the last one on the church and roll right into Pro-Choice. I am a two headed Dragon, when it comes to this! On one hand, I don't think it's the right thing to do, under normal circumstances. A woman should never use abortion as a form of birth control. I've seen it myself, when I was younger, she did it a lot as far as I know. Side bar, I just got a phone call, my son, My Jr. " Dad the doctor said they may have miscalculated the due date, and she is going into labor tonight or tomorrow!"  It will be Jeremy Main The 3rd.
Anyway, on the other hand, there are many reasons a woman would get an abortion. If she was RAPED by some sicko that is a career rapist. Would you force your daughter to keep that child? NO YOU WOULDN"T!
Think about that when your stand outside one of those places, holding up your signs and spitting at these women! How about if the child is deformed and will die soon after birth? WHAT THEN? Or it could kill the mother to give birth? HOW ABOUT THAT! Some just go to get birth control and rubbers. What about those women and young girls. Imagine your own daughter going away some where, away from you, just to talk to those people. Because she was scared, because it wasn't planned, because she is only sixteen. What do you think now? Is it still so black and white to all of you, or have you joined me in all that gray out there? That's why I am a two headed dragon when it comes to that. I would never ask any woman to do that, even growing up. I'm a classic case of teen pregnancy. My mom was seventeen when she gave birth to me Christmas night, in 1970. I started having kids when I was sixteen. It can be a cycle that never ends. Both my older kids have done it to. Daygo at 18 and Jr. now at 19. I would never want any of my kids to choose abortion and I don't think they ever would. Well until next time.
                                                              Writer in Limbo

It's all about the kids

My grand kids call me Papa, not grandpa. I got six kids and 3 grand babies. Ellie jean, I call her Jelly Bean, is 2, Dean Main Jr, I call him Chico, is 1. He is 3 feet tall and 30 pounds, he is going to be a beast, a sexy beast, he is a beautiful boy. NFL size and I'm loving that, he'll probably end up like 6 foot 5inches. The newest addition was just born on the 17th, Roxane, but I call her Sweet Pea, like from Popeye. She was only 5.13 pounds when she came out. Chico looks like a giant compared to her. My only son Jeremy Main Jr is 18, is married and they are about to have Jeremy Main the 3rd. I'm proud as a peacock that my son wanted to keep that family name growing. Ash is his wife, I love her as if she was really my daughter, should be giving birth any day now and it will be her first birth. Chico is my little right hand man and Papa is one of his favorite words. I love watching them, when they don't know your watching them. Their expressions are priceless. It amazes me how much the grand babies have bonded to me and my wife Angie. If all else fails, give them to Papa, I will calm them down or just plain put them out, by singing one song after another. You are my sunshine, Silent night, play that funky music white boy, I'm a little tea pot and others. About 10 songs later, they are out. It makes it real hard when they always want to be fused to your hip, but they are definitely worth it. I wouldn't trade all the moments with them, for all the gold in Fort Knox. Especially with how inquisitive my Jelly Bean is. She talks so much and wants to learn everything, new words come popping out all the time. She loves the word burp now, she wants everyone to do it. She is smart as a wip and I would want to die if they were ever gone from my life. I hope the kids never move far away, so if I want, I will always have a chance to see them everyday. It can't just be me, lots of you out there feel that very same way, anyway, that's how I feel about that subject, I'm sure I'll end up with at least 10 grand babies before it's all said and done. Until next time.
                                                       Writer in Limbo

My God and his infinite wisdom

The end is coming, the end is coming! That's all I have heard for years. Get the gist people, when was the last biblical event, in the bible days. It all came from their perception back then. Have we not civilized ourselves since then? Of course there will always be war, but not like back then. As a world why have modernized our thinking and so has God. He is not coming, we are only going, one way or another. He will let us burn ourselves out if that is our destiny. We may fix our planet, I hope, end up in space somewhere or just plain mutate from all the contaminates within our world. We can't run from these problems, only deal with them. The ones without children are the ones not getting the gist about the future. The rich worry about the almighty dollar, rather than the  cause and affect of there actions. Anyway, for all you out there that pack into churches every Sunday, God watches you the rest of the week to. Maybe you should read that book you guys put so much stock in. This folks is one of the major reasons I don't go to church. For one I was forced to go when I was younger. I got baptized at five different churches, just to get them off my back. Once you do it they leave you alone about your salvation. For two, try walking into any church in this country wearing jeans and a t-shirt. mind you, I'm not talking dirty clothes either, and they will look down their noses at you. Hypocrits! The  lot of you. I'm not saying all of them are that way, but at least 85%. Another thing, Jesus said " Look beneath a tree or in a meadow, I will be there. Nothing about go to that building every Sunday. You know why? Because your body is your temple, not that building and that's all it is. And what about all those false idols! They are statues and stuff like that? And what about the bible saying we are all on the same level, not in so many words, but the preacher sits up above everyone? And what about Jesus, going from age 12 to 30, how did that happen? It's a miracle! No It's bullshit, because they didn't want you to know what Jesus thought about what was going to happen to him. To come to grips with the truth of his life. And you know he was pulling down some major booty back then. Oh, come on, you don't think he was getting laid? His teenage years must have been great and into his twenties. Who knows how many children he may have had, there were no condoms back them. You would be very naive to think other wise and you have to know Mary and Joseph had sex sometime, that means brothers and sisters. It probably happen after Jesus was born, but you know he was doing the humpty dance after that. For all you out there, especially those on death row or prison, who say please God forgive me or I believe in you, just to make it look good. God knows if your bullshitting, so think about that. Me, myself, I believe in God, but I do it in my own way. I don't need a church to know he is there and neither do you. Churches have become some of the riches businesses in the world. Look at the Catholics, collecting money all over the world and it all goes to the Vatican bank account so they can continue to build their golden city. Meanwhile try an get any help from them, haha, yah right, maybe a bowl of soup. Alot of their churches are very poor in other countries, but the money still goes to the Vatican. And they morn their religion and make their people think they can remove sin by talking to some pervert in a white collar. You think God will forgive them for being child molesters? And of course the church all mighty ignores these things to. Isn't that like condoning it? They should just let them have sex, maybe, just maybe that would fix the problem. Until then, I think we should fry their asses! Well I think I ranted enough for now. A couple installments back is what I wrote about my novel. It's a serial killer novel with a great twist in the end. If your wondering about it, look thru my installments and you will find a more complete discription of my book. Thanks for reading and following, I have 3 people right now, but I can see it growing fast. Get in  and have a chance to win my first prise. Sign up today, you have until October 31st. to be in the drawing.
Until next time.
                                                                     Writer in Limbo

Just going on a rant!

I'm starting to hear from some of you, and so far it's been a big thumbs up about the blog and my book. For the people who do read my blog I am going to start a monthly contest. All of the people I know are following the blog, their under followers, all I think you need is an email address, anyway out of all the people on the followers list, I will pick one name per month. Starting when, I don't know, there is no one in my followers list. What do they get a chance to win? A poem for what ever the occasion my be. Maybe it's your anniversary or asking her to marry you. How would you like to pull off some poetic verbage at that special moment. It's always nice to be ORIGINAL. It could just be a way to make up with the one you love or to break the ice with the one you can't bring yourself to talk to. There are a lot of shy people out there, they definitely have the wanting, just not the confidence to act when the opportunity presents itself. Imagine just walking up and hand them a piece of paper or just an email. Just like I would email you with it, so no one else would know. Unless you would like to share it yourself. If you need a certain sentence or name, I'll put it in there. Don't sound to bad huh? I got to have you on the list in order to do the monthly drawing. That gives you until October 31, Halloween night to sign up and I will let you all know who won by November 2.
I will leave you with a little Halloween thinking in a poem I wrote.

                                                    The True Spirit of Halloween

                                                  It begin to fly, the dead of night,
                                                  as black as coal with ghostly fright.
                                                  The dark comes fast for ghouls to roam,
                                                  to hypnotize all, like a spell bound poem.
                                                  The darkness brings it all back alive,
                                                   for witches and demons will soon arrive.
                                                   potions to brew with the eye of newt,
                                                   many to see and try to recruit.
                                                   Creepy things crawl from the ground,
                                                   and bones from the graves, dancing around.
                                                   Deathly calls shriek through the mist,
                                                   clutching your heart like a tightly clinched fist.
                                                   No where to go as it closes in,
                                                   tear drops fall on your trembling skin.
                                                   Your courage is gone you come to find,
                                                   as the evil plays with your mind.
                                                   Hearing the death march coming to call,
                                                   no where to hide, no where at all.
                                                  And will you survive to the sunrise,
                                                   if your alive it will be a surprise.
                                                  It passes your house while smelling that fear,
                                                  I guess you'll live, until next year.

P.S. My kids love that, but they are teens and older. Until next time.
                                                                            
                                                                writer in limbo  

how it gets done

A writer writes- when it's the first thing on your mind when you wake up and the last thing you think about before you fall asleep, you just might be a redneck, haha. No a writer. You may not even know until you try. everyone out there has hidden talents, don't think not me, that's bull and your lazy. Get up off your shoulders and do something with your life. if it's not working, change it. If you hate the one your with, walk away. RIGHT NOW! This is your time, take a shot and don't let anyone try to stop you. With their hands and especially their words. Words cannot stop you, only you can stop your own progress in life. If it knocks you down, get the fuck up, dust yourself off and keep moving on! Wasted talent is the worst thing on this planet. Just think if everyone lived up to their potential, the world would be a much better place. Reach for it, learn about it and then go do it, one way or another. Life is short, your 16, then in a flash your 60. Shit, where did the time go? It's never to late for anything. I just read about a guy like 56 and never played guitar. Within 3 years he became known as the new blues king out of Memphis. He plays down on Beal st. You know what I'm talking about if you been down there. B.B. King!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Talk about a man never giving up on his dreams and he didn't know he had them, until he heard this certain song on the radio. Life will run you over if you let it. Don't just sit there and wait for the truck to do it. My book was lost a couple times, it took 15 years to finish, I had very little time to write at all because of 40 plus hours at work through the years, the over all downer of all the shitty words from family and friends ( so called jokes) like your never gonna get published, you might as well quit while your ahead. I hate that saying. AHEAD OF WHAT!!!! Your never ahead until you get where your going, not where your at or where you been. Now take your head out of your ass and get to work. Good luck on all your plans, ideas and your hidden talent. Figure out what it is and run with it.
                                                             Jeremy Main Sr.
                                                              writer in limbo

As I see it

As I sat at the hospital, watching my oldest daughter give birth to my third grand baby, it's a girl. Thoughts of time just flying by, but I absolutely know where the time went, no question about it. I was born on Christmas and this year I turn the big 40. For a good portion of it, it was a pretty rough ride. I've been near death and almost killed a handful of times. It's rough when someone has a gun in your face and that happen more than once. I think that helped bring a genuine realizm to my first novel, it's about a serial killer on death row for crimes he did not commit. Most writers don't have anywhere near the hardcore life experiences I have been thru and I have a flavorable talent for writing. Not like some of those hacks out there, getting book after book published because of their name. At first, they started off pretty decent, but still over did all there descriptions of the books. For years now just pumping out predictable stupid stories that drone on and on, page after page, just to make the books 50 to 100 pages thicker. If you don't know what I'm saying, read the first few pages of The Grapes of Wrath. It was written way back, but no one needs to know that much about dirt. My book is hardcore and to the point. The point of view of a man about to be put to death and spilling it all. Why not? He has nothing to lose and thinking, why not get it into print. They can't use it against me once I'm dead. Americans love death and murder, especially serial killers. Intrigued about the how, where and when, but never really getting the real WHY. Well you get all that and more with
I Could Be Killing You        my novel
A great story of an abusive beginning, to the growing killing nature of a natural born killer manipulating his way thru his teen years, to becoming a man in charge of his own destiny. More than 30 are killed thru out the book, in many different ways. It is anything but perdictable, with a great twist near the end. The main character will talk to you. You may not always like what he has to say or you may just hate him from jump street. In the end, you will be pulling for him in the end and those around him. Once you open my book, it will be very hard to put down, always wanting to know what happens next. Inside, you'll find : Murder and manipulation, love and lust, sex and the social order of things, adventure and excitement, a saviour and a innocent soul, rape and reality, rantings of a dieing man and revelations of a whole new life, the udder destruction of the human body and living death of a still beating heart. Sounds pretty good huh? I'm going to keep trying to get published and pounding away until the book is out there, for you all to read.
                                                                until next time

                                                               Jeremy Main Sr.

Another day in the dark

I sit here thinking to myself be positive, don't let it get you down. Sometimes it's like a dark cloud over my head. Will I ever get published? I say yes, because it would be an awful waist of talent if not. I was born to write, I been doing it since I was 9 years old. Most of which got lost over the years of moving with my mom or it was just plain ruined by water damage and things like that. My novel took 15 years to write. For one from working full-time hour and having a big family. Two, I had to start over 3 times. The first time I wrote it, I put it on tablets,  which were ruined by water damage, which happen in one of my moves with my wife. Then I started again a few months later on our computer. I got 150 pages done and the hard drive fried out, smoke rolled out the back! It took about a month before I would write anything, I almost gave up all together. I found a typewriter at a second hand store and started over. About ten typewriters later I finally finished the book. It's been two and a half years since I finished and it's still not published. I guess that's a good start, I'll rant about the publishing world next time.
                                                          Jeremy Main Sr.