Sereo-types and ugly judgements

If any of you have seen my YouTube videos, you know I have a beard. It's only about a months worth, but I already look like Grizzley Adams. Anyway, I was walking down the street with a fountain Mountain Dew in one hand and a smoke in the other, while wearing a Grinch who stole Christmas shirt on. Now she comes across the busy street trying to miss the cars. She is carrying her huge purse losely as she runs across and then she spots me. You would of thought I was a terrorist and she was carrying top secret documents, because thats what she acted like as she held on tight to that purse with both hands. For one, that is one hell of a bad judgement call. It's not like she was in Omaha and you could see the cops shop 50 feet away and they have cameras. COME ON! Not everyone you walk past is out to get you. People look at me like I am going to rob them in broad daylight, maybe it's time to shave it off or is it time for people to just pulls their heads out of their asses? I find this disturbing on so many levels. If something is going to happen to you, it either will or won't. You get away clean or you don't. In most situations you have no control, only your reaction. The stain of your cloth was chosen long ago. The only way to change that is to change the person you are now. Judge yourself, not me! Just because someone looks a certain way, doesn't make it so! Hell I wrote a book and will be famous one of these days, so I doubt I will be out there purse snatching. Your life adds up with the things you do and the things you say. You might want to think about that before you reach the Pearly Gates. Well until next time.

                                                      Writer in Limbo

A little piece of advice

For starters, ladies, check yourself! What is wrong with Mr. Nice Guy? Do you thrive to stay away from the men that really want to love you? You want that excitement of the bad boys, but they treat you bad. In the end you want to find Mr. Nice Guy, so he will marry you. Think about it, you may skip part one and end up with a happier life. For all guys moving in with a female or getting married, always put the toilet seat down, don't tighten the lids to much on anything, she will always be right one way or another the longer your together, so there is no need to argue. Take at least 20 minutes to soothe her, that means listening to what she has to say, without looking at the TV. Do this everyday and give at least 20 minutes foreplay, and she will open up for you. She will enjoy having sex with you, rather than dreading it. And if you don't know how to give her the big O, than learn. If you do know how and don't want to put in the time, someone else will and she will be opening up to them! That ain't no joke! Always wear a condom, they got all kinds of crap you can get. Don't live your life by anyone elses standards, keeping up with the Jones is bullshit. Live your life to try and make yourself happy, the best you can. If some gaudy ugly lamp makes you smile or a plaid suit, who cares what everyone else thinks. My final piece would be, don't rush into love or sex. The love of your life, may not find you until your 21 or 25, so don't just jump in head first. If it's meant to be, the right love or true love will find you. Well until next time.

                                                                    Writer in Limbo

The rapture and the Human Race

Well I just came back in from sitting outside, watching the clouds. They seemed so low for awhile, but it's still two and a half hours, or they say, until the Second Coming. If you read my stuff, you know by know I don't believe this will happen. Yes of course I believe in God and the idea of it all, but he has modernized his thinking, as have we. The world has changed alot since the biblical days. When's the last time any of the people on this planet, see sulpher rain down on anyone? To me, this is just another chance for all those fanatics to stir the pot. Get things going, to make people panick for no reason. I think the ones that are worried, are all those priests and even the Pope himself! Or hope about all those televangilist out there? Talking crap in God's name, false profits and false idols, that's just the kind of thing that pisses him off. All the billions Vatigan City has reap from the poor of the world. You take and never give back, then mess with God's little children? I feel sorry for them a little, for what the devil will do to them. I bet there are alot a scared assholes all over the world and prisons are filled with them. Me, I not scared at all, but that's just me. I have plans for the future. Not just my dreams, but the dream of a better cleaner world. Someplace all of our grand kids, can be proud, when they are my age. We all have the time to save this planet, to care just a little everyday for something besides yourself. We must teach and learn a better way of life! To have a chance at the next evolution in this life. Find a way to fade away the hate and war, both pointless endeavors. No one really wins, just many die for the wrong reasons. All races must come together, to be the Human Race! I know they are on their knees in the Middle East and that's because their God never asked for suicide bombers or any of the crap people do in his name. It ridiculous, all of it! We are here to survive, all of us! Wake up! All of you! We are in the driver seat for the future. Are you going to tell your children, you were to busy to make a future for them and their kids. Two hours more. What are they going to say, when it doesn't happen again? How many times are they going to predict the end, one way or another? It's suppose to happen next may too? Remember? I think they are going to look pretty stupid come six or seven o'clock tonight. Things need to change one way or another. Maybe all those bad guys will have a heart attack right before five. Wouldn't that be something, then the meek could really inherit the earth. Well if there is a next time, until then.
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Boston Rob

He did it! After ten years and four seasons, Boston Rob won Survivor! I'm sure there will be other people blogging about him, but I have been pulling for him to win for a long time. He not only won the million, he got the peoples vote for another hundred grand. What can I say, he played the perfect game. It's like I was saying in my last addition about destiny, Boston Rob believed he was destined to win the million and the game of course. I have watched a lot seasons, not everyone, but alot and I truly believe he is the greastest player in Survivor history. And that's saying something. He followed his heart, listened to his gut and used his brains to move the other players, like chess pieces. Well congrats Rob and I hope some how you come across this day. And as for Grant, don't sweat it bro. If he can't get over it, it's his loss. I hope you stay at home next season, that way, maybe I can root for someone else. Enjoy those kids and your wife, and have a happily ever after. Can't wait for next season! Well until next time, peace.

                                                                Writer in Limbo

What is our destiny?

That is a good question, but do you know the answer? Is it that your not sure what the future holds for you? Or is it your to afraid to go after it? Or have you just given up on yourself? I have dwelled on this fact for quite a while. Is there a master plan? Is everything already set in stone? I don't think so, and I'll tell you why. I do believe we began with an over all plan for the human race, but it has become more of an outline or a rough draft to what it was. I believe God has changed his way of thinking as much as we have. I mean think about it, we haven't had a Bibilcal wrath since the bible days. I haven't seen any sulpher rain down in my life time. I think God has upgraded his thinking and the will not be a second coming. He is going to let us go until we kill ourselves off. The human race has a drive to stay alive thru it all and the moxy to turn this planet back into a thriving world. We know what the problems are! We either can or will come up with a way to fix these things. As in the whole human race, their are some bad apples, but you don't throw them all away, because of a few. We must and will fight for all of our futures. Take part in what needs done and bring about a brighter future for our grand kids. You will be back, sometime. I believe there are only so many souls and God just recycles us back to earth every so often. And if I am right, you what a better planet to come back to. Now compared to all that, your immediate future may not be a glint in it's eye. It seems almost simple compared to the whole of things. So go for it and let it all hang out. Why not at least try to get there, or just plain succeed. We went from what seems like a speck in time to people starving around this planet. For those around the world who feel they can't because of where they live or where they were born. I got one thing to say, MOVE AWAY! Find a way and get yourself some where else. No water, go where there is some. War in your country, find a new one. Starving, move to where things can grow. The is usually a simple answer to most questions. You may not like the answer or think your better off, but your not and you are making your own misery. Find a way and march into the future with your head held high.

A Die Job

This isn't my usual kind of topic, but I figured why not? I have 5 daughters and they all follow my wife, when it comes to changing their hair color. I think they do it more often than some guys change their underwear. Ash once did hers Mountain Dew green. I'm sure you know what I mean, it's a fad that will never die. Look around sometime and notice the dark roots under that blonde hair. My girls do it at least twice a months and sometimes it's to much. They even got the boys to do it more than once and they think it's cool too. My son in law once had a clown looking poca dot hair due. When I was 18 my girl turned me blonde once, and that was enough for me. I really don't get the whole thing, but it makes them happy and that's the important thing. So, to all the parents out there, don't get down on your kids for doing this. They are just trying to express themselves and maybe, that's what they need to do to keep themselves happy. Don't fight it, just except it or they might end up with blue hair. Well until next time.

                                                              Writer in Limbo

My Readers

I would just like to say thank you to all my readers. I went over 700 hits all time on my blog today. It's a great thing to put something out into the world, that others are a part of. If there is ever any subject you would like me to write about, let me know, I will tackle it. A special thanks to my followers on my blog, especially the ones from the very beginning. It's funny, I have 9 followers and I am one of them. I did it on accident one day trying to figure something out about the Google account. It's very simple to get one if you would like to be a follower to. I'm sure that once my book goes big everyone will want to follow then, but I appreciate all you out there now. And I will continue my blog for all to read. I will also be blasting an I Could Be Killing You, U-Tube video that should be interesting and I'm sure it will catch everyones eye. Well thanks again and I'll let you know when we get to 1000. Well until next time.

                                                              Writer in Limbo

Family Ties

It's amazing to me, that I have such horrible relationships with most of the family I know. On the other hand, I get along great with those I have contact with on Facebook. Cousins I have never met and can talk to on a day to day basis. I feel somewhat close to them, even though I am out of range for that hug. I believe in the power of a hug, that strong embrace, that can make two family members a bond deep inside. A pride that someone outside your family unit, has unconditional love for you. My kids feel they are to old for hugs now, so get all the hugs you can while they are young. Hug them alot, and just maybe you'll get a few hugs when they older. One way or another, find a way to always show them love. Well until next time.

                                                                  Writer in Limbo

Killing for Sport

What else would you call it when the bodies fall everyday and all the time. Take Omaha for instance. It's only spring and the shootings are heating up. Bang bang your dead! How you like me now, that's what they are thinking. Or are they thinking at all? Killing their own people. Think back to the Indians of this country. Seperate tribes taking eachother out like it was a sport. Imagine if they were one big tribe, organized and calculating like some are to this day. Do you really think we would be here now? I don't think so. Look at them out there killing all they see, sometimes just for fun, like a dictators army. Imagine if they all band together? Things would go crazy and they would really be killing for sport then. Popping of the white folks like running targets. Serial killers, all of them! Anyone that kills many, no matter who they are, it makes them a serial killer. No wonder this country is in love with death and murder. It would be a little different if life was more like a movie and you know it! Until next time.

                                                                 Writer in Limbo

Is poetry dead in America

This is a true story. I walked into a place called Blue Ridge bookstore in Wytheville, Virginia. I just moved into town and I wanted to check out what they had. I said hi to the guy behind the counter as I walked in. Just looking around at first and that's when it dawned on me that I didn't see any poetry books. I turned and asked the man, " Where is your poetry section? " He pointed and said, " It's right next to you." I looked and it was the end of the shelf, with three small boards boxed in. At the maximum, it would fit about thirty paperbacks, and there were six books. I walked up to the counter and asked, " Where are all your poetry books? " He replied, " Don't you know poetry is dead in America? " I looked him right in the eye and told him, " Your wrong mister, they just haven't read anything good lately. The world was bread on great poetry and Shakespear most of all, is still entertaining us to this day. His plays are done in schools every year and all over the world. So no, poetry is not dead in this country or any place else. Most regular folks don't read it and that's because either they don't understand it or it's just plain boring. That's exactly why I am going to come out with a book of poetry they can relate to. That's the kind of thing that could pump it back into the mainstream of society. " He looked at me for a few seconds, shook his head and said this, " Your right you know, I just never thought about that way before. " Then I said goodbye and walked out. No matter what happens in the next two hundred years, poetry will always be apart of this country and the world. That is one of the reasons I added some of my poetry to my first book, " I Could Be Killing You " So everyone that reads it, will be reading poetry and that is just the first step towards putting my poetry book out into all their hands. If I'm lucky, I can get a whole new crowd reading poetry and not because someone forces it on them. It will be because they can relate, it's not boring them to death and they understand why they are enjoying it. I hope you all think about that, and until next time.

                                                                   Writer in Limbo

The future is bright

A few additions back, I wondered if the masses were listening. Well I know they are now. I put a hit counter on my blog, down at the bottom. It has been there only a few days and it's up to 60 hits. I also have been chosen to recieve an award tomorrow for a poem I entered for The Bull Riding Classic. I will find out if I am the big winner while I am on stage. It's nice to have my work recognized by others like that. It is just the beginning for me and when my book finally gets to spring forth, all of America will come to know me. Maybe even seek me out on Facebook. If everything goes as planned, tomorrow I will let them know I will be at Fremont days this summer with my book for sale. I plan to sign every book I sell and I don't think anyone else has ever done that. Of course at book signings, but my plan is to get it done by a book printer and sell every copy myself. That's how I could pull that off. Either way, the future looks bright for me and my writing. I have so many now that have been waiting for my book, and all I want to do is get it out to them. The word of mouth alone, will help me propell toward the best sellers list. That and a great book review from the New York Times. I'm more than confident that a good portion of the world will love my book and all the rest to come. It would be great to be the big winner, but I would rather have my book circling the world. Good things come to those who wait, great things come to those who put in the work. I just hope the world is ready for me. Well until next time.

                                                               Writer in Limbo

Breaking the Spirit

I have had it with the black hole we call the publishing world! Talk about chicken shit's when it comes to anything new. New book and new writer, forget about it. They don't want to touch you and they sure don't feel they have to. But let someone like King, he can throw a book about a lamp monster at them and they will still publish it. It's crap with no kind of originality to it! Come on, our you all that blind? That you buy a book just because of the Authors name? It is an insult to every reader, every book just thrown together so they can make a profit. There is no pride or talent involved in the big book game. Sure, every once in a while they put out a good book, but it is far and few between all the crap hittting the streets. I don't know about you, but if I owned a publishing company, I would want to check out the fresh talent out there. Not just the same old crap. People want books to read, and they are starved for a little originality. I know it's out there and my book, " I Could Be Killing you " is just the start of what they are looking for. They may think the people out there are stupid, but we are not! We need to start showing them that, by not buying all those books out there, that just plain suck. I am sure you all know what I am talking about. That long winded, plot going no where, with characters you can't even identify with. The kind of book you force yourself to finish. It doesn't have to be that way any more. Choose more wisely and take your time. It's not who you read, it's what you read. Think about that, the next time your standing there looking for something to read. Well until next time.

                                                                 Writer in Limbo

The Fools of April

Look out, duck and anything else you have to on this one day each year. Waking up with the door handles covered in vasoline or the toliet wrapped in saran wrap. My family always goes all out to get eachother, especially my wife and myself. One year I made her think I had a heart attack. She loves it and is always looking for better ways to get me. I hope you all have a great day and see how many fools of April you run into on this fine spring day. Go get them all! Well until next time.

                                                                Writer in Limbo

What's going on out there?

Well for starters, we got a black President, oh my God. Is this actually true? 50 years ago, you might of got hung in certain places for saying something like that, let alone actually going through with it. I believe we have past the point of assassination of our Presidents, rather backing that political power for the greater good of those just trying to survive in this country. Give us your tired masses, has been replaced with keep out, we don't have enough jobs as it is. This country is at a turning point in history, just like it was when the American Revolution was happening. This will be a mental revolution, those strong enough to survive this economy. There are solutions to these problems, but like everything else, it will take time to develope. These steps will not be backed by all, but most will. Imagine for starters we legalize weed? This is what would happen, all those farms not cutting it in other ways, could cut it legally growing Mary Jane. An instant cash crop in one season and it would create jobs across the country. Everything from the farmer themselves to the stores selling it, to everyone in between. All the truck driving jobs too. It would create more business and a big economic flow. All those out there sneaking to buy it, could just get it at the smoke shop. It would also slow down the hard drug use in this country, on the youth out there coming up. We have to go to some exstremes to save this country, and now is that time. I know we reach a lot of hands to those out there, but isn't it time to step back and let some things take their own course, without our involvement. In the next 20 years, we must step into the future and take hold of our own destiny as a nation. There must also be a wind and solar revolution to. We must go to war on these problems, and conqueor them like a waring enemy. The question is, do we want to be here in 20 years? Will our country stand together, to change our childrens future or will we just fade into history, as just a failed experiment. Time will only tell. There must be a political change, in all their thinking! No more splitting the votes to gain money in there pocket. To vote for the better of our country, rather then taking 8 years to get something to pass in Congress. Haven't any of these guys seen any of those future movies, what we will turn into as a nation? There isn't any politicians in those movies, their all dead. And so will they if we stay on this course. The people won't sit idlely by forever, so think about it. What would you rather have, a Madmax future, or one that we blossom into. We will choose to live on or die off, it's your choice. Well until next time.

                                                                  Writer in Limbo

Destiny

I was thinking last night, about destiny and how you would know? Do you think Motzart knew right from the start? All those through out history, shaping things in their own way. Did a light come on in their heads, and say, " I am destined for greatness." Imagine those who are still spoken of to this day, like Socrates and Ghandi. Even those deemed Public Enemy #1, Like Al Capone and Dillenger. I believe some must know from the beginning, but most figure it out at that moment. The time they explode onto the scene, like a tornado of personality. It use to be far and few between when it came to the destined ones. These days, many people push to be in that pack. Movie stars, atheletes, serial killers, people running for office, writers and even the hero's of this day. So many out their chasing their fifteen minutes of fame. Some even kill for that attention, the recognition of being a better killer than all the rest. Or just plain eat their victims. I would have to say, that the idea of a great personal destiny, has been twisted a bit into their own warped since of reality. A true destiny would never send you spirolling into a dark place. Only those who choose to travel down that road, a road of evil ryhme and reason. A true destiny either is or it isn't and you can't force it. The one true thing I know about it, is that you can shape your destiny and those around you. Many ways to change your fate and sometimes all it takes is a push in the right direction. In this life, you should give a hand up and not a hand out. And for all those out there that are hiding from their destiny, take a chance, take a hundred chances, because your life can change like the blowing of the wind. Just imagine someone dropping a million dollars cash in your lap, imagine the possibilities. Your life can change with the flip of a coin, remember that your choices shape your life.
Well until next time,
                                                           Writer in Limbo

A True Friend

Can you truly see it? Do they? Ask yourself that and look at those you choose to spend your life around. The one that would never mess around with your better half. The one that over looks your uglyness, when it comes out and is still with you through the worst of it. The one person you really like to talk to and not just to muddle into never ending small talk. Are you starting to see them, well if they are truly that friend, they are seeing you in that same light. I lost mine long ago, in August of 89. Someone I could talk about what kind of a super hero we would want to be while drinking a beer. One way or another it's the greatest feeling in life to have that person by your side. Until next time.
           
                                                           Writer in Limbo

The Circle of Life

Well today on the Facebook, I got a slap in the face. Someone friended me, then on I.M. they asked how old I was. I told the truth, 40 and I got back, " Man your really old. " then they stopped talking. I find it ironic that someone would say that to me. All the people that ever knew me, and my explotes are still the thoughts of legend in a lot of minds, and that's just the time I was in school. I have done what most people would call crazy. I pushed the envelope of life many more times, than any one man should have. But it seems that since I am 40 now, I don't have anything interesting to add to the conversation. It seems that every generation feels they are smarter than the ones that came before them. At least once in every life, they make a statement. Don't dis those you don't know, no matter what their age. I quote " Everyone deserves to add a verse." You may learn a single thing or a life full of adventure. You'll never know unless you talk to those, you choose to ignore now. Knowledge is power and kindness is a God given right. Take the time to get to know the ones that came before you. Volenteer to read to the elderly at an old folks home, that is the core of O.G. to me. The ones that survived much worse tragedies than much of us out here. And last of all, never take for granted those who died, so called for their country. I think they die for their own individual idea's of military service and some that were forced to be there, those drafted over all these years of war. I'm sure you will find an interesting story or two there. The past can be historic, prevocative, adventurous, sexy, remorseful and free of mercy. It can be many, many things you know nothing about. Well what ever you do come across, I hope you enjoy the time you took to learn something new. Well until next time.
                                                           Writer in Limbo

Wondering if the masses are reading this.

Is the world really listening to me? I think to myself, are they and how will I really know until my name is up in lights. They say it is not wise to think that way, to be sure of yourself. Sure of what you know, or just plain go and get it. My book is going to wake a lot of people up. Maybe even put them on a better path. I hope to change a lot of lives, and send some out of control. You know those out there that feel they are running it all. The moral of my book is, that anyone can be got! In some situations anyone out there could be the one doing the killing. Yes you too. " I Could Be Killing You " that's my book, it will make you think about a whole lot more than what you do now. And that's exactly why I don't think, I know my name will be out there. Like to hear your name called at the Oscars. The movie script that was adapted from a book, that will be my book. To hear my name being said, along with a billion others watching. Maybe even get invited and be there when I hear it. I know it's pretty opptimistic of me with this book. Not many books like get the Oscar nod, but if they did it right, maybe a nomination. I have a back up plan for that to. You see, I know it will get turned into a movie, it's only a matter of time. I have the start of a book that has Academy Award writen all over it. It will stir the emotions of everyone who reads it. Nothing like my first book with all it's murder and mayhem. Don't get me wrong, it's a hell of a story, but it will be wrapped around the emotion and situation the characters are living through. Some of the movies that I feel that are the type of emotional heart pullers like, The Color Purple, Pay it Forward and Where the Heart Is? All to me are Oscar material and mine will be to. Well until next time.
                                                           Writer in Limbo

My Facebook irratation

It's been a while, I just wanted you to have a chance to catch up with all that I have written. Today I am ranting on Facebook or just those who feel like it's their own personal website! Some guys were talking about E-books and all I said was my book " I Could Be Killing You " will be an E-book soon and the guy starts breaking my balls about interupting their conversation. Is it just me or is this guy an idiot? People talk about the smallest accomplishments of that moment all day long. Why shouldn't I promote my book? He acted like I was popping up on his page every five minutes, but the last time I even popped up on his page was 2 weeks ago. I get people telling me about their projects, I don't mind and I incourage them to do so. That is what it is for, information, daily or otherwise. It's a place to say the things you want to say, not keep it to yourself. To all those out there, keep on keeping on and lay it out there like you want. I could see someone complaining if you send them the samething day after day, but if not, they need to just shut their yaps and move on. I would like to drop the hammer on all those out there with that kind of attitude. Life is to short to make time to bitch about someone elses success. Well until next time.
                                                                     Writer in Limbo

Entering Madness

I just woke up, and I have no idea where I am or how I got here. I don't seem to be locked in, but I have the over whelming feeling I can't walk out the door. No matter what I try to come up with, I can't escape! Is this a dream or just a nightmare? How long could this last? Will it keep me locked away, until the end of my days? Am  I just plain stuck here forever? Almost feeling as if everything around me is closing in, like someones hands, clutched to my throat! It's as if I am expecting someone to open the door for me. How long could I wait, and will it be years? Feeling a rush of the unknown washing over me. Like acid rain, eating into my flesh. Hearing things that could not be true. Is that my own voice? I swear I'm talking to myself, but should I answer? I am not crazy, and I sure you would agree. For my though, this is all a bit crazy! Don't you mock me, I hate that very thought! So just shut your face, and wait for the door to open, like the rest of us!

The old days

I was just pondering the past as I sit and wonder just what my life would be like, if I would have changed this or that. That time you decided to go this way instead of that way, or tried a certain drug instead of walking away. Think back to that moment, that pivotal moment of destiny that spun you in one direction or the other. For me, It was not really something in my control, but it was when my mom left my step father, and to me it was a liberating choice of destiny that was made for me. If that wouldn't of happen, he would of ended up killing me. Well this is just a short one, but until next time.
                                                       Writer in Limbo

Changing the World

Sometimes it just makes me sick the stupid crap I see on Television. These talk shows with these kids acting like a fool, like pulling a knife on their own parents and shit like that. I love seeing Steve Wilko's taking them to county jail. It scares the crap out of them and leaves them crying. For the most part it works out and gives each of those families a chance at a better future. I have to send out big PROPS to Steve for doing his part to change the world. Even if it is just his small corner of the world, every little bit helps.Why don't you out there, see what you can do in your little corner of the world. Even if it's just flashing a smile at your neighbor, or helping someone stuck on the ice in the middle of the intersection. Try to do what you can to pay it forward in your corner, something they can't do for themselves. Seriously, let's change this world, this year and make it the best year of ALL OUR LIVES! We are the masters of our own destinies. There is nothing stopping you, but you! Some your corner of the world who you are and ask them to pay it forward with a smile, then walk away. 2011 can be that pivotal year in our life time and just maybe this can spread across this great planet that we all take for granted. It's up to us all! Well until next time, pay it forward.

Vampires

 Vampires
Stealing souls through out the night, the creature can smell your hidden fright,
mirrors have no tale of them, they cannot see their lie, in many forms they seek your blood, but mostly they will fly. They come in the night, so their eyes pierce into your mind, and to them all, virgin blood is the greatest find. Nonsense, says the manly men, theres nothing for me to fear, the beating heart and pulsing veins is what they listen to hear. Nothing helping all the weak, but a cross around their neck, without some kind of weapon, they'll throw you to the deck. Only to can kill the hunters, the sun or a stake, and if you miss with both of them, your soul they'll easily take.
A little poetry from me for the new year.